i need to see a psychologist.

Really

I must admit that i am a person who thinks alot.

And thinking maybe good, but at the same pose a threat.

Someone spoke to me about fake people.

People who appear to be nice to you,

but are a different person behind your back.

I am disappointed in her.

Very disappointed.

I am not going to say that she DID tell him.

But i hope my assumption is wrong.

Not that i am being boastful, or using this as a reason/excuse,

i realise that my instincts can be VERY accurate.

What i believe will happen WILL happen.

Everything around me seems so expected and predictable.

what was 1 year ago, isnt what it is 1 year later.

People change.

But i guess this is something we all have to go through.

Maybe i am just afraid to lose a friend, a buddy.

He means alot to me.

Thus i am telling myself to just accept things as it is and focus on myself,

rather then others.

But i don't know about her.

I have tried all ways.

I have done my best.

but she doesn't want to help herself.

I know she has a personality of a peacemaker.

But i don't need her help.

I don't need her to tell on behalf of me.

I can do it myself.

i am not dumb.

She has to understand that helping aint helping, if its not the person him/herself.

Just really, mind your own business.

What happened in the past, i have already forgiven her.

But if she makes the same mistake, she might lose a friend.

its her choice really, to lose a friend, or to keep both.

Today i was told that the competitor advertised for their programme on the TV.

I feel very uneasy at the mentioning of their name.

I guess life is just so unfair.

How come the imitation becomes the bigger player in the industry?

While we are the original and the more experienced.

How can someone, who 'adapts" from someone else's programme, then create a similar programme, calls it his/hers end up being the bigger player?

It is just unfair.

Sometimes i really wonder if there is anything i can do to help get justice.

but i guess it is all about accepting reality once again.

reality is really cruel.

The truth hurts after all.

While we're at it, we just have to make the best out of it.

I need a psychologist.

There are many questions on my mind.

And i cannot rest my mind.

And i hate it.

i am going crazy.